asking "why mi???why muz it always b me, and y not them"

aint going to bring u far~

its time to wake up

face the reality man!!!!!

did i ever complain tat y muz it always be mii??

i got scolding even if it is not my fault

did i ever mumble and keep on grumbling bout it??

i never~

i never not bcoz i din feel anything

or i m simply too stupid or din even care

i never bcoz i m the leader

i muz take responsibility in my ppl

within the 4 walls i may scold

but outside i muz shield

i really dun understand man

this batch suppose to be better

but it simply doesnt reflect

oh my

u guys tell mii

u all dun noe how life will be

w/o mii

i seriously dun think i m tat good u noe

u guys can do better

seriously!

juz thrust urself more

and dun rely on mii

difficulties come, u face them

not looking for ivy for ans and solution

maybe i hadnt been a very good senior

i m always shielding

and helping

doesnt let u guys c wad is really going on

and wad is inside the circle

i tot giving scenarios, endless talks, advices

will be vulnerable enough

u guys can learn from it

y muz it always end up lectures, scoldings,

and hurting...

i really dun understand

i m going to step down soon

i longed for the dae

but i cant bear the thought of leaving

when u guys aren't ready yet..

i m still doing a lot of things tat i shdnt be doing

u guys are the ones suppose to take charge

not mii

i m thr to advise

thr to witness u guys learn during the processs of handling the 1st project

but u guys arent ready

it will be a joke if u guys tell mii u are

coz u guys are not

the attitude reflects a lot

i aint suppose to come out with the agenda

agenda of ur meeting

i aint suppose to help u guys tink of a solution,

or to provide ans at the very last min,

sometimes i dun wan to gv u guys solution,

but u guys..... haishhhh~

i really dunnoe how to help u guys

if u guys dun wan to self-help

i dunnoe how to guide ur through projects

coz thr isnt a chance for mii to guide

coz i m doing it

i m getting upset not coz i end up clearing ur mess

some more is always in the very last min

i m getting angry not coz its so unfair

y muz it always b mi,

i m getting angry at myself,

coz if these attitude continues...

the attitude u guys shdnt be having,

i will be living the board,

w/o teaching, or sharing

my experience, lessons etc etc....

and to put it in layman term

i will end up juz like my seniors

thought mii nothing

and i got to learn my way through the hard way..