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Saturday, July 24, 2010 ♥ 9:19 PM

今天第一次看见我老爸这么狼狈~

他右脚的膝盖痛得让他一直“唉唉大叫”

他就连走路都是一个问题

上楼是朝后坐在梯级一个一个上

脚很像废了一样

医生说是老爸太操劳的关系

膝盖承受不了那种压力

本来要退休的他

还得帮我姑姑在盖一栋独立式

还有一间工厂

赚这么多钱干吗？

大不了我们半工半读

有本事就用工点，

考奖学金~

看到这样的老爸

我心好痛好痛

daddy and mummy know why i didn't go school yesterday

i never tell them, yet they know

and they didn't even ask anything about it

guess they know me too well

i won't skip school without valid reason

thanks mummy and daddy <3

as i said,

u have cross the rubicon.

i can forgive her,

cause i know her too well.

but i cant forgive what u said

and its the same reason

cause i know u too well.

those things shouldn't even cross your mind

let alone saying it

i really don't feel like attending school>.<

but i can't let all these silly things affect my studies right?

its not like i will take out my books

and sit in front of it for 2 solid hours

if i can,

i wont be going to school.

my life pretty fuck up now a days

haish~

never mind

it can only get better.

cause this is the worst

SCHOOL,FAMILY,FRIENDS

*I AM IN NEED OF A HEADPHONE~!!!

who can buy me one?

Thursday, July 22, 2010 ♥ 11:04 PM

还有更烂的吗？

做人真的很难

不知道为什么你们都觉得我在帮他
一定要选吗？
为什么我没有选择站中立的权利？？

在家要做中间人
在学校也要做中间人
我真的很累

受够了！

好不容易挨过了今天
一回到家就坐在天台的围墙上
我知道这样很危险
不过那是唯一一个我可以放松自己的地方

冷冰冰的风不断迎面而来
也许那风一点都不冷
不过我的心，真的好冷好冷

坐在那儿有半小时左右
就被老爸拉回了现实世界

洗了将近半小时的冷水澡
我坐在那儿发抖
从来没停过
水真的好冰
好想把我的心给冻起来，
我不想受伤了

明天应该不会去学校吧~

I m really confused 

WHAT RIGHTS DO U HAVE TO SAY THAT
Nobody is standing up with him
And I am the only one who sides him?

WHAT RIGHTS DO U HAVE??
U KNOW U REALLY HURT ME SO MUCH
I treated u as one of the friends tat know me very well
And I tell u almost everything bout my life

WHAT RIGHTS DO U HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS?
U KNOW VERY WELL THAT BOTH SIDES CONTRIBUTE TO TODAY’S RESULT
IT TAKES 2 HANDS TO CLAP!!!!
And I m one who reason
And I never help one side more than the other

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS MAN???

ITS SO HARD TO GET OVER THIS TRAMA
I AM SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THIS
IF U GUYS CANT APPRECIATE IT
FINE!!!!

I WILL MIND MY OWN BUSINESS
AT LEAST, BY DOING THIS
I can protect myself from being hurt again…

Sorry, I m not going to school until I get over it

Wednesday, July 21, 2010 ♥ 6:05 PM

just finish watching sassy girl

that show is AWESOME!!!!

IT'S A MUST WATCH!!!!!

OMG!!!!

national exam is coming.

prelim is 3 weeks from now(or is it less than that)

spent loads of time singing K recently

it's a place you can go to pour out your feelings :D

monday seated for the english oral exam

i literally flunk the paper i guess =.=

and yesterday's listening comprehension was not fantastic either

nonetheless,

i still laugh and crap like crazy people do <3

it's been sometime since i see my god bro

i miss him~

played soccer for PE on monday

it was insane~

the grass was muddy(thanks to the rain)

and i went barefoot on it

just because i can't dirty my shoes(oral in the afternoon)

so i went inside the field

shouting"eeee" or "yucks" or "ewwww"

and i was looking for grasses that look dry =.=

but still,

thanks to haining,

i had loads of fun.

and laughed my ass out <3

fall asleep while waiting for my turn during oral exam

so proud of myself>.<

people are all tensed because of the exam

and me (and zhentao) fall asleep

after oral head to play volleyball

no matter how hard i deny it

it doesn't really help >.<

i really miss volleyball :(

i really feel like jumping like some RETARDED

to spike the ball

whatever it is

早点放手吧

没必要这样

弄得两方都不开心

不自在

若那一刻从来

我不哭

让他知道我可以很好

忘了被爱的感觉

心，就不会冷了

Saturday, July 17, 2010 ♥ 3:47 PM

i really had no idea
why i am here right now
when i have tons of homework screaming at me
waiting for me to complete them!!!!

homework list :

8 sets of emath papers to be completed by monday
7 sets of o level physics prelim papers
2 sets of a math papers
5 topics of a math ten years series
4 pages of a math differentiation
POA homework
start to do something about my CHEMISTRY
start to do something about human GEOGRAPHY(development)

i guess that's it

but ITS A LOT!!!!!

Friday, July 16, 2010 ♥ 9:27 PM

WOW!!!!!

VIVY THIEN IS BACK IN ACTION!!!!!

xoxo .__.

this week was awesome

although its tiring :)

I STILL HAD MY ULCERSSSSSS MAN!!!!!

its SUPER PAINFUL ....

AWWWWW >.<

i think i really gonna rub salt on it :(

i went to see a doctor,

and the medicines simply don't help

stupid!!!

i can't recall what i did on monday>.<

but it doesn't really matter :D

its definitely something good

tuesday had normal lesson all the way to 4pm

then accompany WENCHUN GO CUT BOTAK!!! with zhentao

after that dinner at ( i don't know where)

head back school at around 6

after that did papers all the way to 9pm

homed after that

wednesday was like >.<

everyone was tired

like tyre puncet!!!

i told coach i don't want to play volleyball anymore

and he was like.....

he asked me why(obviously)

i said i don't feel like playing anymore(juniors please dont learn)

thomas said i was too straight forward

but it's the truth

i don't like to tell lies

so yup

I M HONEST~

thursday was AWESOME!!!!

normal time table end at 3pm

head to SWIM after that

with atiqah, aslindah, haining, yaxi and qianyee <3

head to CWP,

dinner with wenchun

we were late,

OBVIOUSLY!!!!

head back school and stayed all the way till 9pm

didn't really study

was playing

and laughing

and still playing :D

Mr Yeo said we look so free

then add another 4 sets of paper want us to complete over the weekends :(

but still!!!!

i had LOADS OF FUN

and i SCANDAL WITH YAN BIN

todae was ....

hmmm

WOW AND CRAZY!!!!!

school end at 12.30

orals and listening compre end at 3+

then head to SING!!!!!

xoxo!!!

HAD LOADS OF FUN :D

with qianyee, weijie and wenchun <3

weijie was like: u are the one singing?

ivy: * stunt for a few seconds*

weijie :wow!!! i tot is the person there singing

ivy:*blush

wenchun* obviously is jealous said:

" waa waa waa!!!!!"

okays the fun started like this

wenchun had a HARD TIME going back with us :D

i was CRAPPING and MAKING FUN OUT of myself and wenchun

we were LAUGHING ON THE ROAD LIKE SOME RETARDED

laugh until stomachache :D

haahhaahahahassss :D

but my day is spoilt by someone

WTH!!!!

grrrrrr!!!!!!

Sunday, July 11, 2010 ♥ 8:38 PM

wow!!!!!

had a flash back of the past few days

the things that i posted!!!!

its rather moody,

and its really not ME!!!!

my friends around me

ALL SIAM PRETTY FAR!!!

went to see miss lucy on thursday afternoon

i cried :(

that's not the point actually

so what is the point??

erm....

ask me that later

went to sing K in the afternoon

with annie, weishi, cyntia, wenchun,qianyee, zhentao & ruijien

actually only sing with them for an hour

then me and qianyee went to another room :P

yesterday had AN AWESOME DAY

with natalyn, wenchun and thomas

we laughed like nobody's business

xoxo .__.

"HUILIN GO, THOMAS GO, WENCHUN GO, I GO!!!"

(spent the whole day playing out!!!! )

my school is screening LIVE WORLD CUP

@ 2.30am

i agree with annie

our principal really IN

hahas,

but i wonder how many graduating classes will turn out

miss ang and mr yeo discouraged us

so we shall watch AT HOME INSTEAD!!!!

okays,

shall end here

school will get really busy from now on,

NIGHT CLASSSS!!!!!!!!!!

*in the preparation of national exam

i will post in standard english once again :D

Tuesday, July 6, 2010 ♥ 9:42 PM

昨晚是我人生中的一场噩梦

好可怕，好可怕

昨晚整家人都哭了

一向来不在家作出任何贡献的我

竟然哭了

而且让人意外的是，

我抖着哭。。。。

当时我突然觉得

我是多么的脆弱，

多么的不堪一击

不管我表面装得多不在乎

多么的坚强

我还是忍不住就哭了

昨晚我哭着睡

不对！

不应该这样说

因为我跟本就没睡

哭着做学校的作业

哭得我头好晕

很像随时都会失去知觉一样

已经是半夜一点多了

我的脚有点儿软，没力气

就这样，

我撑起自己

去洗了将近半小时的冰水澡

出来了的我

窝在被窝里发抖

哭累了，

自然就睡了

为什么事情会变成这样

我真的不知道

我好想好想找人诉苦

可以找的，

不是睡了，

就是我不想引起不必要的误会

今早我托着自己没有灵魂的身体去上课

好累好累哦

不过我还是熬了一天啊

不管怎样

我想倒，也不能倒

说服自己

我是铁打的佳琦

金镶的阿琦~