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Thursday, October 28, 2010 ♥ 11:36 AM

i had been doing quite a number of thinking rcently.
what i really want to do in the future...

after this bored + long holiday.
i discover quite a lot of things about myself.
but it's all negative side of me

i notice that i have 0 patients & tolerance to those who are some what " dumb"
i can't stand them.
i don't know why.
>.<

i had been working in my father's company
this new stuff of his,
which is already here for almost 4 months,
still doesn't familiar with her work
and all her part can be learn in one day

so guess what
i am working as her "assistant"
everything she did,
my papa wants me to check again!!!!!

that means everything she did since june,
i am practically redoing!!!!

what for hiring such people man!!!
even the computer system she can mess up!!!
and i have to clear up her shit work
by adding 596 numbers in one day's production
and if you really chek through
every single day's production,
it takes you an hour per piece!!!!!
and i have to culculate everyday's production since june!!!!

for those who had been reading my blog constantly
YOU WILL KNOW THAT I HATE
CLEARING PEOPLE'S SHIT WORK THE MOST!!!!!!

okay!!!
that's basically my first discovery of my bad habit
which is

"NO PATIENCE AT ALL"

second thing is that i am ignorant to alot of stuff
and these are things happening around me everyday

for instance,
i don't know that students in m'sia walk to school
i thought this only happen in singapore >.<

this is still alright!
i don't know how to cook,
i can't even crack an egg
i don't know how to open the air-con's cover
i can't even light a lighter,
let alone matchsticks

there is whole bunch of things i don't know how to do,
my parents said i m selfish.
so i only care about myself,
other than that,
that involve's team work or something else
i have 0 knowledge to it

i agree with him actually

can you imagine that i don't even know how to open my house gate?
i don't know which button to press.
and i don't know my house's alarm password
i don't even know how to cut an apple,
or open a can food!!!

everything comes too easy for me
thinking back of those things i don't know how to do
i feelmbarrass myself>.<
it's basically countless

i have to admit i learn things fast
faster than most people do,
even my father is impress

i can read the construction drawings
i even know how to calculate those materials,
i know that slab and beam works together
how to read the drawing from a meter rule,
and calculate it's mass
there is a whole bunch of things i know,
and he only thought me all in half and hour
and i complete all the culculation in one day

i can't believe it myself

the only thing i find it easy to do is study
to be precise,
i don't even study

if i make an effort to know,
i don't have difficulty in learning

people say i am smart
and it's obviously unfair
people need to put in alot of effort
while i simply look through them before exam

i know you all will hate me for saying this
but seriously!!!
i am actually jealous of you all.

as i said,
things come too easy for me
as a result,
i don't take them seriouly

if you guys achieve something,
you all will experiece those joy and satisfaction
that i don't think i ever experienced till 16 years of life
i want to have that feeling tooooooooo..........

i have been searching for things i find it hard to learn
so i will have that "satisfaction"

SATISFACTION!!!

haish......

i have to set a target for myself!!!!
to experience hardship and perserverance

so next year target is average 85%
it can be done
if i study
coz i already achieve 81%

for a change,
i am going to study
stop being laid back,
and start improving!!!!

O-LEVEL 6 POINTER!!!!!
EVERYTHING A1!!!!

GANBATTE!!!!!!
FIGHTING!!!!!!!!!!!